Moi Journal!!!

His ways are not my ways

2010-11-02T00:44:00.000+05:30

For the past few days, i feel like i cant move past Isaiah 55:8-11... i try to go back to my new testament reading, but then i cant stop thinking about those verses, .. well, here they are....

8. " For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,"

declares the LORD.

9. " As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher

than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

10. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return

to it without watering the earth, and making it bud and flourish, so that

it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

11. so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me

empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for

which i sent it.

When you read these verses, don't you feel the Peace of God filling you?? i hope so, in my case.. i was boosted up inside, i was like i so needed that right now!!...well lately i felt so downhearted, clueless regarding a lot of things about my life, worrying about them and things like that...and when i read these verses i was dumbfounded, i said to myself "nobody can cheer me up like u Jesus, ur awesome", slept with a smile that night, had the most peaceful sleep..

What really stuck me was the order in which it was written.... in the 10 and 11 verses , there is a definite answer that every God's promise which are in his Word will come to pass....the metaphor illustrated is so beautiful , just as rain and snow can never return back to the sky without watering the earth..!! how Great is God, none of his children will lack any good thing, as written in Psalms 34:10

So, friends if you think ur faith has fall short, cheer up God's word can never go in vain!! With faith he can do wonders and miracles in your life!! just wait on him! he will do it for you..... always trust his Ways , for he wants the best for you!! ...Amen?? God bless!!!

awwwww... *ur smiling* now thats the spirit!!

Creepy Crawlies!!!!!!!

2010-10-09T21:03:00.006+05:30

The thought of it freaks me out, YIKES!! I hate these creepy crawlies like lizards(all sorts), frogs, bugs, i can tolerate snakes to some extent.!well, there are many incidents , especially with the geckos,house lizards.... ugh!!!

The one am gonna tell you about happened sometime in July, i know its like ages ago, but i think its time i write in my ejournal!!

On a very beautiful evening, me and my cousin sister were watching television,we were watching movies one after the other,it was non-stop...it was about 3am i guess, and we were watching this horror movie, hundred feet i suppose! I was glued to the movie, and my sister since it was night, she would now n then scan the room for any lizards.

Finally she spotted one , and was tapping me slowly and this is what happened.....

My sister : 'Fiddie, i...i think we have a visitor'

Me : (turns around),where! where!

(both me and my sister stand up on the sofa where we were sitting!!)

My sister : (laughing) over there , on the door of our room!

(it was one huge gecko, the size of a baby crocodile, guess it was an oldie!!)

Me : UGh!! so disgusting.. can we run inside? we got to sleep!!

what if it falls down? never mind we be here itself!!

think we are sleeping in the living room today!!

(our eyes are still fixed on that crawly, while talking.... and then it spotted some fly or something.. it started moving down..and we are like ahhhh screaming soo much!!, and our grandma woke up as well!!, told her some lizard and not to worry... she was like OH my GOD!!)

Our servant acca also got up, and came running to the living room, she asked " what's wrong? " we both shout together "PALLI!!( lizard in tamil).. She came with a broomstick and gave a big whack on the head of the lizard and thought it would be dead, but this one was strong it started running towards us.. and you can easily guess know what we did, SCREAMING like anything!!our servant acca could not help laughing..she spotted the lizard under some chair and started whacking again!!

And she thought it ran away because it was nowhere to be found, so she said you girls are safe to go now. But when she took the broomstick out, there that lizard was clinging to the broomstick, that was the grossest thing i ever saw!!YEW!! i was like "Acca , its behind the broomstick ahhhhhh!! She took it away and after about hundred whacks it was killed!! Me and my sister was like one croc down,!YEW!! and also we got a sore throat!!

It was 5am when we finally hit our beds that night, but no sleep only!!!

DISGUSTING CREEPY CRAWLIES!!!!!

LOL DAYS * miss them*

2010-10-03T18:24:00.004+05:30

School days are so much fun, nothing complicated with no worries about future and stuff...Well, I have changed a fair number of schools , i do not know what goes wrong , i get easily bored with a school,(even though i will be having fun at the same time) the maximum is about three years in a school i guess!! ..:P I did my fourth grade in a school opposite to my house, made good friends , had so much fun then when school day fever came to descend they kept auditions for dance numbers, and i did not get through that i got so mad and i went to my parents that evening cried and squealed my heart out to them.... finally i got what i want!! changed my school :P besides another reason was my folks were thinking of putting my brother in a different school as well, as the younger one always look upto the elder one, i wanted to change as well..but the reason i told my parents was i did not get through the dance audition..
The fact was i changed two schools by the time i reached my tenth grade ...(funny why i did that). In my tenth met an old friend of mine from CSI (thats the school i studied in my 4th) in my Maths tuition, what a reunion that was!! :P ... eventhough we both were so nearby we never met in like 6 years.her name was teddy*..so that week (or the next i forgot) through teddy called some of my friends and we met at my home for lunch..we had loads to catch up, and a thought struck me then...CHANGE UR SCHOOL BACK TO CSI!! and i liked the idea .. :D
During my tenth summer holidays went to my mother one day and asked her " Mom can i change my school to CSI? she was like why?
i was not out of reason... told her i want to learn french which is not available in my old school..My mom suprisingly agreed!!... so joined CSI the next week, was so happy , conveyed the news to teddy, we both are jumping up and down..

On our first day of school, four of us *teddy, *quacks,*moncs, and myself(fine noodles it is!!) went together...we were all in different groups in our high school...but everyday after school we made it a point to hang out in my place for awhile and then leave home....i remember us sitting on the steps of my house in the portego, munching something ,doing a little gossip,talk about any cute guys!! ecetera ... teddy will crack good jokes , because everyday she will have some laugh gags for us!!! one thing i regretted the end of my 12th year , should never have changed this school ever!! would have had the best times!! My high school was something i can never forget!! miss u girls!!One thing i realised with all my school changing scenarios, some people are meant to be in your life even if time can seperate them from you!!

Its been so long , Five years have passed, met rather occassionaly a few years ago maybe..never all four of us together ..!! especially moncs one busy bee she is!! Hope to have the foursome reunion soon,! Atleast this Christmas, which would be the best christmas gift for moi!! miss you all....School life would not have been more fun without you 3! HUgS!!

*names are changed!!

GLEE!!!

2010-10-02T18:01:00.000+05:30

Glee is a musical comedy - drama televison series, and it is also one of my favourites. Being jobless and doing nothing at home, all i did was watch these dramas to kill my time, to my amazement i started looking forward to watching Glee :) Missing it actually, so am pouring out on my e-diary, I still remember how i used to literally count the days for the weekend to come.

I think i should also tell what its all about to those who are clueless about what am saying..., basically this show will be loved especially by all music lovers !! The entire series focuses on a show choir know as Glee Club , at the William McKinley High school , somewhere in Ohio i guess!! It used to be very popular until recently so the Spanish teacher of that school, Mr.Shuester wanted to restore the club to its former glory and he will take over , and will name the club as "New Directions". The Kids will love him because he has this passion for music and that is the kind of teacher the kids want., they will make him proud...

And so every year a musical competition takes place known as the Regionals , so they will be working hard for it! well, but their happiness is short lived , because it turns out , Ms Sue Sylvester, coach of the cheerios( ie cheerleading squad) is one of the judges in the competition , she always hates the Glee club and just like it was expected they will never win the Regionals,but they will be happy that they have a family on their own, made friends for life and all of them have found their passion....and season 1 ends....

I hope they win in Season 2 *smiling*..... but in india they broadcast after your done waiting!!! *sigh* .. however Glee music is a click away anyways!! :P

Some of Glee's famous music is (according to me)

*Don't Stop Believing

*Defying Gravity

*Express yourself ( never knew this was Madonna's untill i saw in GLee, every girl must listen)

*Like a Prayer( i like this version better)

*Bad Romance( one of their hitz, and i like it better than GaGa version!!))

Musiq! Music!! Musix!!!

2010-10-02T17:18:00.000+05:30

*My music player will be in tears if it could!!*

Howdy!!! Music is my passion. I can say it is more part of me. It is one way I can forget my worries, anxiety, or anything bad and can totally be myself. I listen mostly to Pop, Hiphop, a little bit of rock when I feel like it…Mostly connect with girl artists, and a few guy artists like Enrique for instance!! Whoa!!... I remember when I was a teen, used to be an ardent fan of Britney and eventually it died out, Phew! Am glad I did!!!

Some of my favourite artists I still don mind listening to are Delta Goodrem (she is amazing, wonderful lyrics), Selena Gomez (I started liking her after watching the movie another Cinderella story and princess protection program J, her songs are okay to listen when your in this jumpy mindset!!),Hillary duff, Taylor swift, Lady Gaga (she looks like a weirdo but her music sure does rocks!!) and all the Glee tracks…. , a few good songs by Black Eyed Peas, Usher, John denver, Pointer sisters, Toto, (still cant let go off the 80’s).

To me contemporary artists says it all! Nothing compared to them, in my opinion i think the songs are perfectly blended to the present lifestyle and at times speaks out what am going through, very meaningful and makes lot of sense to me. One of my favourite artists in that category are Rebecca st james (all of hers are too good), Susan ashton(“Move me” is one amazing song, typical me!!), Michelle tumes (“Dream”..dreamy track and very beautifully sung), Barlowgal (“Never Alone” there are times when I have felt exactly what they mean in that song!)

Now am not being sidey here pals!! What am trying to say is any song with meaningful lyrics and good music are worth listening to!!! Choose the right music and have fun!!hope i din bore you...... Adios!! :)

Fascinated by genes

2010-10-01T19:19:00.000+05:30

Its been awhile since I wrote something .The truth is got caught up with life, (even though i have been jobless for a loong time) and forgot all about my blog, My apologies for that :/. Well, i was doin nothing at home and was pondering over what to write, then it struck me, why can't I write something based on life sciences *smiles* .This post is based on the Big Book .

I have a major in molecular biology and genetics and that subject has always fascinated me. To those people who have no clue about what am saying, let me try to explain .Every living being have this hereditary material called as genes. A gene is a unit of heredity in a living organism. It normally resides on a stretch of DNA that codes for a type of protein. Still doesn't ring a bell? may be a computer analogy can help, the DNA contained in genes performs like software, telling the hardware in the cytoplasm what to do. A small fault in a DNA can totally change the entire function of a protein, or it can cause some physical anemolies.

I have given only a gist of what i have learnt, there are volumes and volumes of books based on the study of genes, what struck me in the reality aspect is that they are so tiny, they stay behind the scenes ( u can hardly see them) Without them our body cannot function, it will only result in chaos. Makes me ponder more about the designer, God's creation is amazing how vast is his knowledge, we can hardly fathom it!! * in awe* .

We can do nothing without him, what i feel is, just because we cannot see him with our eyes does not mean he does not exist.. I cannot see a DNA yet i know its behind every activity in my body. Of course same is that God stays behind the scenes, and yet without his love, there will be only chaos in our lives. He is THE DNA to our lives without which we are doomed. well, think i can finish my post with this verse i just remembered,

'Jesus said " You cannot bear fruit unless you remain in me" - John 15: 4b

God bless!! :)

A bestie

2010-10-01T17:52:00.000+05:30

F.R.I.E.N.D.S is one funny sitcom, right now thinking about it makes me laugh! Its one of my favorite television shows of all times. I can watch the entire series a million times and never get bored. Some scenarios they broadcast reminds me of the fun times i had with my friends. . it also makes me realise that some friends are friends for life... want to dedicate this blog to one such friend of mine!!

I have been in hostels my entire college days.. I can still remember vividly the first day of my college, freaking nervous (about ragging and stuff) and also was wondering if i will make friends, if people will like me and things like that......My very first friend was Hema in my undergrad college.... The funny thing was I never wanted to be friends with her when i saw her the first time standing outside our warden room, I was literally praying that i do not get to be her roommate ,when my turn came to meet the warden it was *finger crossing* moment, got my room , was quite excited and when i went inside my room was freaking shocked!! and why was that? The girl whom i never wanted to share my room ended up being my roommate....( One of those moments wen i was like damn, my prayers are unanswered!!). I really want to faint, back then but pulled myself together and went up to her and started a conversation and i liked that i did! (later on i came to know she also felt the same way about me, Wat a coincidence!!!))

Two days passed we became friends, both our frequencies matched , bingo!! we became good friends *smiles*..Our room was always in the naughty girls room list...We do the opposite of what we are told to do, as in coming late for general body meeting, untidy room(we meet our warden a number of times for this). always shouting at the top of our voices after ten (its silence hour after 10). we all got heaps of warning... but nothing got inside our iron heads!! :P

i would say our warden loved us because we drove her crazy every year!!

i tend to wander away from a particular topic, so coming back to hema, the 3 years we had was one one of the best days. To describe her she is this patient, tolerant, jovial person, very much down to earth always has the best of interests for me, would never give up on me ... have never seen anyone give genuine words of encouragement like her, she has been with me through all thick and thin of my life, We had our misunderstandings but then we always got back(it happened only once). She is one of my bestest friends, can never forget her ever for everything she did for me. love you Hema dahling!! Love you heap loads!! ( i know ur shocked, cut it out girl!!!) muah........................

His Presence!!!

2010-05-31T16:37:00.000+05:30

Aloha! Everyone, Hope you all are doing fine! Pardon me for not taking my blog very serious, except when I really want to share something, that’s not gonna happen anymore I believe!..(meaning will be regular!!) Here goes….

Exodus 33:14-17

14. The Lord replied, “ My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”

15. Then Moses said to him, “If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. 16 How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?”

17. And the Lord said to Moses, “I will do everything you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name.”

As u can see, am only sharing what I felt in my heart..anyways When I was reading this verse, I could not help thinking how close Moses would have been with God….no wonder he spoke face to face with him…huh?...it really pulled me to take step to go even closer to God.. One more thing God taught me was I can never do anything without him as told in John 15:5b..

I love this chapter Exodus 33….. There are times when we think ordinary when all the while we are distinguished people, since we are God’s children. And God can do mightier things than we can ever imagine.. so never get depressed when things dont seem right to you.. always remember there is a God who is watching over you, he never sleeps nor slumbers, always remember to put him first in everything you do… without him we cannot do a thing!!

So what am trying to tell here is no matter how bizarre a situation can be, hold onto God and he will guide you through in his perfect way…as it is written in Isaiah 55:8,9

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways,” declares the Lord.

“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

I would like to wrap up here with a few lines from one of my favourite song..it goes like this,,,

“Oceans deep; Mountains high, O my GOD I cannot live without your Love.”

Can somebody say Amen??? Amen!! God Bless all!! Adios!! J

A Miracle Indeed!

2010-01-24T15:42:00.000+05:30

Hey everybody! how ya been???Hope you all are having a great time by His Grace, Well its been so long since i blogged,i feel terrible about it.....anyways there is something I really want to share with u all for this year 2010....If i turn back my pages to 2009,Its all imprinted deeply within me, and i really wanna pour it out here....here goes ....:)2009 is a memorable year for me,about one thing in particular is what i wanna share with everyone here,..during the month of May, my mom was not doing very well, she had this unbearable pain in her right leg ,as in her thigh(also the femur),we all thought it was just a sprain, ...it became so unbearable that she was taken to the hospital,the doctors diagnosed and said it has to be some muscular cramp,she was given medicines but nothing worked....she still had that awful pain, so they took a scan and found that there was a hair pin like fracture,as always all the doctors were surprised that they reported it was one of the rare cases because the femur bone do not get fractured just like that ,without the patient fallng or hurting his/her leg...Are you with me till now??alrighty :)

My mom was told to take rest,but unfortunately within a few days the bone broke into half..i still cant imagine the pain my mom would have gone thro...well, my mom was rushed to the hospital,she was taken to trivandrum where they did a minor surgery to fix the broken leg,Meanwhile i was never told about all this,Until i couldn bear it any longer,I went to trivandrum to find out for myself.when i saw her i was in tears .....i was like "God Please help us"...i was there for about a week and returned back....

Since it was a mystery to everyone, samples were taken from her bone and was sent to various hospitals and care centres for diagnosing,finally in regional cancer centre,trivandrum, they found out that this might be cancer,and they found it to be as a bone lymphoma.

I was in college when all of this happened and when i heard the news ,i was so broken inside,i couldn do well in my academics, i was not being myself, will always want to be alone, depressed....the thing was i always used to freak out when i hear about cancer,being science student, knowing all about it,and when my mom is going thro the one thing i detested it sure did freak me out so much,there has never been a night without me crying.....but still somehow i know God was with us all along ,he strengthened me thro his wonderful Word,and also thro my buddies,thank u guys :) God bless u all!!

Coming back to my memory lane,after she was diagnosed for cancer she was taken to christian medical college,vellore(cmc),there she underwent her treatment,she had her 1st,2nd,3rd chemotherapies but nothing happenedwhen her scan was taken ,the lesion was only getting bigger,it was not healing....The doctors lost hope, so they told my dad she should have a major surgery,which might take too much for her,and thats the only way out...they said lets see after the 4th chemotherapy.

My dad literally would have been in tears,he was taking care of mom,,but he wouldn have shown it out!!love u dad :)her 4th chemotherapy was given,even in our church they prayed for mom,we told everyone we know to pray for her and that following week or so my aunt said that she will be cured,just like jesus raised Lazarus from the grave....( for the people who do not know the incident,its from the bible....it goes like this,there was a man who got really sick ,meanwhile had sent for jesus to heal this man lazarus,but before jesus could come and cure him,he passes away....it gets 4 days for Jesus to come to his place,but u know what Jesus did??he just said "lazarus come out ".and he raised him to life.)...my dad was very much consoled when he heard this,..the next day being sunday he attended the evening service in the cmc chapel,it so happened the minute he set foot inside the church the pastor was talking about the exact same incident that my aunt said,its from john 11.

........My Dad was overjoyed when he heard it,his faith was boosted up...and when they took the scan for the 4th chemotherapy ,to everyone's surprise,the lesion was gone!!!Praise God!!The doctors told she is 80%healed,,When i heard the news i was literally jumping up n down!!

My joy knew no bounds,God has been wonderfully gracious to our family.....it was a medical miracle indeed!2 more chemotherapies were done and now she is perfectly alright,she had a full check up last week, and she is perfect now,perfect as in she walks without any support,how cool is that???lol ..All of this happened only cause of his Grace ,just as its written "Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit"

Mom was home for christmas,the entire family was there, must have had a rocking time at home,i was stuck with my project,sigh :( but i was so happy for my mom....:) Anyways my joy was overwhelming thinking that God answered our prayers.(special thanks to my buddies who prayed for my mom!it was a good support to us..).well in this crisis one thing God taught me was to have faith on him ,no matter how bizarre a situation can be,,,i always get anxious about things...he taught me that he is in control of every other situation in my life,i can tell it for sure anywhere, He is the everloving- ever living- ever lasting God..thank u jesus :)

In my life it brought a change,it must have to our entire family, but to me i was taught to trust him fully without anxiety,,what am trying to say is what Jesus did for my mom ,am sure he is mighty enough to save you too....in his time ,all we gotta go is call onto him,because he loves u dearly :) can somebody say amen??amen!:)

Am closing my chapter now,hope it strenghtens ur faith too..never give up on calling on Jesus in any situation Big or small....u know wat?GOd takes his time with u and me!!!!kewl huh..:) God blesss all!!

love you charlsie!!muah

2009-11-10T00:33:00.000+05:30

Its been so long,since i flavoured my ville :).That is because have been a busy bee for quiet sometime now....Anyways here is something i felt the urge to write,its about my big brother who is someone very close to my heart,next to God..i had to write this because i never ever dreamt that i would be this close with my brother,since kindergarden i always hated him, most of the time we will be throwing things at each other, calling bad names,,complaining about each other,,we always fight about the tv,which is the only thing i remember so well(since i have a very bad amnesia)literally i should say like how the old saying goes"like cats and dogs"...

I still remember my friends telling me during my school days that am really very lucky to have a big brother, my expression would go like this,"oh ya!i do not see any difference at al!!".Now when i go back in time and think about everything my friends said ,it is all very true,they were so damn right about it!.

We have been really close for the past three years and it has made a big difference in both of our lives(that is what i believe),especially in mine,am basically an introvert,i really find it hard to open up to people, but i can be totally myself with my brother,he knows my life from A-Z all that i have been thro in my life,...everything and everything...

Most importantly, am so thankful to God for my wonderful brother,i still sometimes do not understand,certain things like we were very much drifted apart during his college days(we never used to have a normal conversation even)...but still always missed him back then..

Out of the blue things changed and i just love it the way things have unfolded,God put a smile on my face :)Love you so much charlie(should i say anna???)lol. A big teddy bear Hug for you,Love the waay you are,stay the same!You are the best,Keep rocking.....

So Special!!

2009-10-20T10:47:00.000+05:30

hi everybody!here goes my first official blog, and am so excited in writing this, because as i was pondering about what to write ,i felt that i can start with writing from my BIG BOOk, so this is it.............

PSALM 139

This is one of my favourite psalm from the bible,when i came across the psalm i was too shocked to know about God's understanding and his Love.....let me explain what am trying to convey here,the psalm has 24 verses,each verse explains how much he cares,,starting from the first till the last.. it goes with his knowledge about everything we would be doing from the day we were born, (all our dark secrets too)),my favourite part is even when i go astray or try to hide from his presence even then his Right Hand would always uphold me,or it can be implied he always finds and pulls me up,isn't that amazing???some one always keeping track of you,even when u annoy them the most,!!

The most wonderful thing about this psalm i like is,how God considers everyone very special and unique ,(verses 13-16).The best part is he has designed our lives before our birth even, how cool is that!!the fact is we can never fathom it with our chicken brains ,:)Its just like before we execute a plan we make blue print of it,so that was exactly what God was doing too,,we are all part of His wonderful Plan....

This might sound different or unbelieving,and the fact is it has a very strong statement and is is so true,i can say it confidently because there were times in my life when things were not on the brighter side,God cheered me up by helping me to read this psalm,so that whatever happens in my life,(unhappy times)i would always get reminded, my plan is not yet over!!!!Now am in all smilessss:) which applies for everyone out there!you are special !so cheer up!he knows everything that is going on in our lives he will come and help you,because you are the apple of his Eye!!:)

you can read the psalm to fully taste God's Love...:) and am gonna wrap up here,God BLess!!